Confusion on my feelings
I’m 18M and for the past month or so I’ve discovered I’m Asexual, whilst I feel comfortable talking about it with friends the thought of telling my mum terrifies me.
My mother is a very understanding and open-minded person who has always supported me and my sexuality, case in point when I thought I was gay when girls around me had no sexual appeal to me at all, it was later found out (5 years later) that I have little sexual attraction to others if any at all. Whilst I know she’d be okay with me being Asexual what makes me hesitate is the fact that she has told me she would like to be a grandma. Whilst I would love to give her that opportunity I just can’t bring myself to do anything revolving around sex as it makes me feel extremely uncomfortable and icky inside (no fault to anyone).
I’m just really confused on what I should do and if I should tell her my feelings or just let things ride on until she asks about it.