I fumbled my dream girl cuz I was to scared to date a woman for the first time
So quick background I was raised muslim and had internalised homophobia for the longest now I’m no longer Muslim and I thought I healed and ready to date. Went on hinge met this amazing girl, we really hit it of she was absolutely amazing and I really liked her but then this fear creeped in me. Suddenly I found so many flaws both on her and myself. I’m not pretty enough, I’m broke I am this I am that and I just ghosted her and when I didn’t anwser she unmatched me. At first I was relieved. I got rid of the app and decided to just let it go. But now it has been months and I can’t stop thinking about her. I want to try to find her but I’m scared I might actually have deep issues and it’s not fair to put her through that. Ik she had similar story but idk what’s wrong with me? I really like her and want to be with her but it’s like something is stopping me.
Ik this story might be cliche but it’s my life and idk why I am even sharing it but if I find her should I be honest or would that be to much info ?