I feel crazy
For the past month or so, i’ve been having really weird experiences and it’s been making me feel like I’m going crazy.
I feel like my life has just started. Not in a spiritual way, but more like a “i was just adopted and im trying to catch up with everything and everyone” way. I know thats a really weird description of it but its what describes my feelings the most.
Whenever i interact with my family, i feel like I’m new and an outsider. For example, i was just talking to my grandpa the other day and i began to think. I started to realize how little of a connection I had with my family, and it felt like i just met them.
I felt like my younger brothers have been in my family longer than I have, and they know my family better than me. I still have some recollection of my childhood, but it just doesn’t feel personal.
I had told my sister about it, i asked her if she ever felt like her life just started, and she looked at me like if i were crazy. I feel like everyone was misinterpreting my question as if it were a rhetorical spiritual question or something like that.
I haven’t been struggling with anything like anxiety, depression, or anything traumatic. I am diagnosed with generalized anxiety but it doesn’t seem to affect me in my day to day life. But this whole thing has been bothering me and I’m so sorry if this whole thing is confusing, i just don’t know how to explain it.