u/KaleidoscopeDue7494

Hi! I’m Daniel 14M and I just need advice. Me and my mom were looking over my report card with my twin brother. My brother had better grades than me (which I have no problem with) but she just kept shoving it in my face how my brother did better. When I eventually stormed off, I went to my room (which I share with my brother). I was talking with my brother (who was apologetic that she did that) and she said she heard me say “I hate her, stop” which I never said.

She then said it was to “push me to be better”. And I said to her that it wasn’t pushing me if it was degrading me and holding someone else higher. She then decided to lie to my face and say that she’s been getting texts from the school about how I talk to much in class. I said that’s not possible because I HAVE NEVER GOTTEN IN TROUBLE! Not one detention, not one ISS. Nothing.

I said “you are just straight up lying to my face at this point” because they only result to texting parents if I get an office referral. Which, again, I haven’t gotten one. She literally started throwing a tantrum like a 2 yr old about how I was “disrespecting her” and how I only treat her like a piece of shit. I love her but it’s annoying to deal with. What should I do?

So I’m writing this at 10:37 pm on a school night because I physically can’t cry anymore. My parents suck. When I need them emotionally they aren’t responsive. They say “why do you lie to us” when they haven’t even considered why I feel the need to lie. I can’t talk with them.

For some background, I live with my grandparents (I call them my parents because I’ve lived with them since I was 9 mths old. As I am going through high school, I know the hormones are off the charts but still. When I need someone to vent to, they’re never there. They just shut it down and dismiss it. I don’t know why. They are very old baby boomers (early-mid 60’s) and were always taught to suppress emotions. I try to see it from their sides but it’s just too much for me right now to handle. They just suck emotionally especially when I need someone.

I don’t know if this’ll gain traction but I just need advice what should I do to support myself emotionally