u/KanochiXD

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Want to know if anyone relates or understands. I have a horrible real event. Because of it, I feel like a fraudulent human being. I feel like even if I were to become a perfect person, it’s all just a front to try and run away from my past. An example is romantic relationships. I feel like I’m just hiding who I am from anyone I try to date. I’m scared of dating people for this very reason. If they knew what I did, they for sure would hate me. I was in a long term relationship not too long ago, and my event was before it began. It always hurt being complimented about my character by this person because I knew who I REALLY was.

Nowadays when the relationship crosses my mind, I can’t help but feel like I tainted this person. They were in love with a horrible person, so now they’re ruined. I’d even feel guilty if we were still together. I’d think stuff like “damn, how unlucky do you have to be to end up with someone’s who’s done XYZ”. At times I don’t even feel like a human, just some entity thats tainting innocent people by associating with them.

How do I stop feeling like I’m ruining peoples lives? And how do I get over the fact that if these people could figure out my past, they’d hate me?

My real event is objectively repulsive. Extremely bad. But the point of this post is: if I’ve committed horrible actions, do I have the right to call others out? Any time I see a case of someone being a “bad person” like racists, bullies, anything. I feel weird about saying anything because why do I feel like I can try and be morally superior when I’ve done something irredeemable? Why am I, of all people even speaking about right and wrong? I don’t have the right to even think that someone is a bad person. Especially if I try to judge for an action similar to the ones im ashamed of.

Hopefully this makes sense, I’m less coherent when stressed out.

So I’m in SoCal and I could get a Vegas ticket since the drive isn’t too bad but id rather not since there’s a lot of extra expenses with that trip.

Should I just wait and see if there’s a CA date or fuck it and get the Vegas ticket?

Anyone know where I can get my black oem seats dyed red in SoCal?

Hey guys so out of nowhere my AC stopped blowing to the front and passenger seats. Well it still blows but barely anything comes out even on full speed. Air is still blowing towards the backseat though. Any idea of what’s going on?