Threw my phone across the room (vent)
I (22f) just threw my phone across the room so hard (literally scared myself) after hanging up the call with my mum because she would not stop coughing and clearing her throat. I am using this as a safe space to be a total bitch for a sec because I know you guys prob understand that I love my mum and appreciate her and know my feelings aren’t logical. She has what seems like this chronic cough all the time and I hate it so so much. It makes me actually feel depressed because I love her and feel like I need her in my life and want to be a good daughter but I can’t handle it when she has that cough which is all the time. Constantly clears her throat as well. The angry insane illogical side of my brain tells me she’s doing it on purpose. I’m really not an angry person apart from when misophonia makes me angry. I’m ill rn and my mum was being really nice and trying to help but the combination of how sick and nauseous I feel and my mums coughing/throat clearing makes me want to scream/do things to myself I’m not sure I’m allowed to say on here. I’m going away with her at the weekend and sharing a room, I don’t know how I’m going to cope. I just feel really sad and hopeless about it tbh, I’m worried it’s only going to get worse as I get older.