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Yeah...this is just another rant. My mom is very religious, and thinks she can send the demons out of me, or "IN THE NAME OF THE HOLY SPIRIT....!" it out after a seizure. Its the worst thing ever. I 'wake up' dazed, confused, tired, beaten up, with both parents at the bed and yelling AT MY BODY while holding my face. I get scared at first. Then she goes and cries. And she wants to take me to a healer. And I dont belive in a god but cant tell her. I know I cant understand what its like to witness a kid going through this, but having a person react that way just makes everything more bleak and scary. I'm going to a healer to get prayed over to ease her mind. My parents fast for me. I have no one to talk to about this.

I know this sounds messed up. It probably is...but theres something so validating about going to class with scratches across my face, or a black eye that I myself caused. I HATE having epilespy, and what I hate more is people not taking me seriously.

I've had 12ish seizures (that we've caught) in the passed year. I was once super organized, had different binders for school, always studied, did well in card games and could follow instructions clearly.

Now my papers are stuffed in my bag, my grades from As to Bs, when teachers speak as they teach- I shortcut completely and can't process them. Its like an off switch. Played Dutch Blitz tonight and couldnt keep track of any of the piles, and the colors seemed way too bright. This is weird, I won a tournament for the card game in 10th.

I feel so lazy and no one believes my 'excuses.'

Anyways, my friends laugh (they are kind people I promise) when I dont process something the first time, or do something stupidly incorrect. (I normally realize a second after and fix it) they just dont understand. I feel crazy.

All this to say that when I walk in a room with a banged up face, at least people take me, and my condition seriously. Its no longer some crazy excuse for being the way I am. Anyone relate?

My name is VERY biblical. I'm named after a prominent Jewish women in the bible who was royalty (not hard to guess who) and when people hear it they immediately know I have a religious background.

The problem is, thats the last thing I want. How do you guys deal with it? Any good nicknames you can think of for this name? (I dont want to explicitly write it out but you guys know)

Edit: Thanks for making me feel better and giving great suggestions guys!

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Hi! So I've done hours of research, and still havent found MY school. What do I want???

\-A big outdoor culture, nice campus

\-Affordable out of state!!

\-DIRECT ENTRY BSN 🙏🙏🙏 (the bottleneck sophmore year thing scares me)

Guys I'd be so grateful for any recs...

Hi! So I'm VERY interested in coming to Western, but I don't have a mentor and am confused about the process of becoming a nurse in general, but specifically here.

I think I need to take 2 years of prerequisites before applying to the BSN program (?). I don't want to take the accelerated course because I've heard how selective it is, however I know in general the nursing program there is hard to get into.

If I did become a student at Western, stayed two years, then was rejected from a BSN program, what then? Move away from a community I've built and start over at a different college or state? I have a decent GPA, (3.8 in highschool) but haven't earned my CNA and have little volunteer or hospital experience. I did few extracurriculars in highschool, but did not do any research or anything really remarkable in general, so I think I would be rejected. If anyone has experienced that, I would love to know. Again, I dont understand the nursing track yet. Help!

Hi, this might be a confusing read for many, but I need to hear your thoughts on if I have some phycological disorder or if anyone can relate.

I have nocturnal seizures- and often wake up with severe scratching on my body, or bruises everywhere. I hate waking up someone talking to me in that voice (we all know what I mean) telling me I've had a seizure. I get a sinking feeling and am often in a depressive state the next few days.

However... I always hope that if I have a seizure my 'injuries' are on my face and noticeable. I crave the attention I think? And I know this is wrong. I take my meds and would never intentionally cause a seizure but this is how I feel.

As I'm writing this, I also am realizing a few things. Epilepsy is largely an invisible disability, and no one understands how it has upended my life. No one gets that it is not just in fact seizures. No one takes my memory loss, fatigue, irritation (keppra?) seriously, thats not to mention how I've had to change from my dream career, and can't get a license.

I never talk about my epilepsy to my friends- because frankly it doesnt seem serious. Cant see a seizure happen= not there. At the very least- its impossible to grasp why I can no longer do as much as I used to. So when I have a black eye or slashes across my face, I almost get happy when I see how jarred people are. It gives them some tangible evidence that my life is different. Idk guys. What do you think?

"At least its not ...."

How do I respond to that dumbass comment. My friend has had pretty bad headaches over a long period of time. They need to get it checked and I've told them, but they dont listen. They always talk to me about it because I take their pain seriously and show genuine concern. Then one time I talk about my experience with "issues in my brain" and the overall importance of getting CT scans (ect...). The one time I talk about me they just brush it off, telling me it could be worse. Never have i said this to them about their headaches, or anyone ever. How do I respond without giving them actual brain damage. (Kidding ofc)

I just needed to rant. Thanks