smoking after quitting gives insane anxiety and panick
made an account just to post this, so i can get some feedback from people who have quit for a long time
after smoking daily for over 5 years i had fully decided to quit, was tired of being dependent on weed, smoking over 2gs a day, evey second i got
after a month of quitting, i got some za and smoked it, smoked the whole day but at night when i was going to sleep, it made me so anxious and pissed that i might go back to smoking daily, so i dumped all 5gs down the toilet
another 10 days of sobriety, then i got another 5 again, smoked, dumped it due to anxiety and random paranoia/panick feelings
this process happened another 2 times, buy > smoke > feel like shit > dump it all
at this point i understand its an addiction cycle, what i dont understand is how come before weed solved it all, made me feel chill and relaxed, but not every time i smoke it feels like "impending doom" or just panic attacks, where if I even stop gaming or watching something the thoughts creep in and i start panicking for no reason
any advice/comment is acceptable, I just want to see what other people have to say about this
i dont want to smoke, ive proved that to myself by dumping it all 4 times already so why do i smoke again even tho i know its gonna induce panick (i will prolly get roasted for sayin that but yea, its a weird state of mind)