u/KingJacket12

It’s been about 53 days since my last use of weed. It might not seem like a lot but for such a chronic user like me it is. However I keep wanting to go back to it because I’m bored and depressed. I have nothing going on in my life, no job, talents or hobbies, no relationships or social life. So when I don’t smoke, these depressed thoughts come into my mind and they are so hard to shut off without my usual edibles.

I don’t know if I should do it though, but I really want to. The only reason I don’t was to not disappoint my family and one particular friend, who I honestly am in love with.

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I’ve been off marijuana for about a month now. Trying to stay clean but the mental pain I’m dealing with is exhausting. I’m constantly on the battle of fighting the urge to relapse. The problem is, it made me vent to some people I really care about, love even, and it’s starting to burn them out. Their constant worry of my well being is affecting them, and this is absolutely unacceptable to me.

I wanna block my friends, and stay away from my family. Unless it’s a professional, no one should have to listen to my bullshit and get depressed from it as well.