I regret not being more girl crazy when I was younger.
I am 24 years now and a male. I have so much I wish to vent about but I’ll keep it simple. When I was younger I should have dated and filled around with girls more.
Ever since in elementary school I wished I had a friend or a partner who truly love or understand me. Now at 24 I still feel that same sentiment.
Instead of getting more in girls, or social groups or fiends like my half brothers did, I decided to hit the books and study. The reasoning for this is my parents and especially my mom shunned and demonized my half brothers saying they were gonna be “failures in the future”.
I wasn’t that smart, but I worked stupidly hard to get where I needed to be, however despite how hard I worked it was never enough. It cost me everything. I missed out on being a boy, young, highschool, and college love, and on important friend and social interactions.
Now I’m at 24 with a shitty business degree and 3.8 GPA and no real job prospects. Parents are divorced and I’m the loneliest I’ve ever been. I didn’t workout that much when I was younger so I’m not fit. I have no real romantics experience. And I’m seeing and hearing my roommates at 20 live their lives romantically, socially, and sexually.
If I could turn back time I would. Now I have to accept I’m turning 25 this year and I don’t know what I want to do anymore.
For anyone reading this, chose your experiences. Go sneak, go have fun, go kiss that girl, go on crazy trips with your homies. They won’t all matter not but they’ll matter to you one day. Go find your true love.