Hi all. I’m using my main account for this which is scary but here goes. I’m masc (non binary) but lately I’ve been struggling with my gender identity. This might be more for a trans subreddit but since I’m AFAB I feel comfortable putting this here too. For the longest time I’ve been masc. I’ve been out since very early teens and haven’t changed much since other than being confused about gender identity and going with non binary pronouns.
Lately I’ve been looking at myself more and more and wondering if being masc is all I am. My partner has asked me (without realizing as I have not spoken about this) if I will always be masc. I thought about it and I don’t know if I want to be. You see people of social media who are fem masc getting their hair cut to be more masc and people love the transformations etc and it’s great to see those people being them selves and happy. But there’s no representation or discussion about mascs wanting to present more fem like growing their hair or changing their clothing style.
I genuinely don’t know where I’m going with this and it’s a journey itself allowing myself to think of myself as not masc anymore. I want to try things to fem myself up a bit but I’m scared to start. It feels like coming out again and that was hard the first time.