I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was nine.. I'm 21 now and recently I started disassociating... Like sometimes I wouldn't feel real or I'd genuinely feel like a ghost walking around and everyone was real but me.. sometimes my head runs on a spiral and I feel empty or too much like I'm either overly emotional or not emotional enough... I'm genuinely asking if this is normal... It makes hard for me sometimes... And sometimes I do things but like... I'm not controlling me...
For instance..
Earlier last week my dad told me to put my phone away (we do Bible time at night) and I said hold on and him and my step mom was yelling for me to put it away, I put it down and covered my face shit was like .. I wasn't controlling myself it was automatic... I kept saying "why don't you leave me alone" and it wasn't like I meant to say it it was just coming out before I could stop myself. And my dad came over to pull my hand away from my face and my whole body just panicked and I was pushing and hitting and screaming "GET OFF LEAVE ME ALONE" And he was trying to pin me down and my step mom kept talking in the back ground saying I'm dramatic... When my dad pinned me I just kept saying "I'm done I'm tired I can't do this no more" and I was crying... It was like an out of body experience like I was watching myself...
I mean I did get a little less sleep the 3 days before due to work (I got 2 jobs) but I lacked sleep before I never done something like this before. I'm not asking for medical help or anything I just want to know if it's a symptom.