u/Kirol_reddit

So, pretty sure my dissociation and depersonalization are down to gender dysphoria.

Still have that ... Longing, the wishing I could have been born differently. The envy, the ... Everything, I suppose.

But it's already too late.

I have a wife, kids, my hairline is too fucked, my brow ridge too prominent, my ribcage too wide -

I'm not brave enough to go out fem while visibly trans. I'm not brave enough to make a move on it all.

I'd have to be stealth, I'd need to feel safe, to feel sure it's what I *need*, and I don't think I can do that.

I don't think I can commit.

But, where do I go from here?