u/Kissy_kriss

In May last year, I broke up with my boyfriend (now we are already together). And I went for a walk and stayed overnight with our mutual friends. When I was talking about my boyfriend, a friend with a girl whose best friend I was and began to support me. We were left alone and just talking. Then we went to bed and then through sleep I feel that someone is touching me, at first I thought that it seemed, but then I realized that it was not. I wanted to run away to scream, but I couldn't work, the only thing I could do then was just to spin so that nothing would happen. A month passed and we were with this boy and The girl stopped communicating (for other reasons) and I decided to just keep quiet. Many times I wanted to talk to someone about this situation, but I couldn't, it felt like my mouth was being closed and I couldn't speak. 9 months passed, I was constantly dreaming about this situation and one day I was still able to tell the guy what happened then. Probably because of stress, he didn't want to believe in anything and we broke up. But I still have a friend who is also our common and he was the only one who supported me then, but he was in the army then and we couldn't see each other. He's constantly I was interested in how I complimented me and I was just glad that although he was not around, but he would always find a way to support and he said that he would never communicate with that friend and how badly he did. (before the relationship with my boyfriend, I liked this friend, but I did not attach any importance to it at that time because we had been friends for 2 years and in principle he is a loving person). time passes and we put up with my boyfriend, he sincerely apologizes and this friend from the army comes. we are going to celebrate a joint birthday, everything is going well. and this friend Lives at my boyfriend's house. this friend goes to the club with his niece and my boyfriend wanted to turn on something to watch on his laptop. and then immediately there is a telegram and his favorites and my boyfriend sees my photos there, which only he had and he had it since September. he immediately kicked that friend out but I haven't seen him since that day. I still want to talk to him, once there was even an attempt to talk he wrote and apologized a few months after that situation I wrote to him why did he do that? Why were some photos more valuable to him than our friendship? Why did he do that even though he judged that friend himself? And he didn't answer me anything. now it's been more than three months since the last situation, but I still want to talk to him, and I miss how stupid it sounds. I talked to my boyfriend about the last situation and said that I miss him, he tried to support me or help me somehow, but he doesn't really succeed. It just gets worse from the fact that my only friend doesn't want to talk about it, and the guy can't help. And I'm left alone with my thoughts. That friend constantly stood on my side, always listened and helped, and I just don't have a person who can do it right now.