So I think I am asexual, I’ve felt like I am for years now, never being able to develop crushes like my friends, and forcing myself to in order to fit in. Questioning why I never felt horny, or sexual, or how I never actively craved sex or felt the need to sleep with anyone. I just want companionship.
Heres where I’m struggling- I dont want to fully accept it? Ive dealt with sadness, feeling like I’m missing out on an important part of life, and feeling like I’m fundamentally broken in a way. It seems so nice, I desperately want to want someone, feel that intense crave and horniness and pleasure, but I just dont. I have to completely force myself and even then I just can’t experience attraction.
How can I accept myself. Feel better about the fact that I am probably ace. Its so hard, especially when most people dont even know what asexuality is, or dont accept it as real. I’m just struggling.