u/KittyPuppy42

Hello, so I know I need to talk to my doctor, but I'm embarrassed and my parents are at every doctor's appointment with me.

I am an alcoholic. I've had seizures since I was 15/16 but they've definitely gotten more frequent. I didn't realize how much alcohol can affect epilepsy until I was around 20. I started drinking a lot more once I turned 21 because I'd never had a seizure while drinking or after drinking so I figured "doctors tell everyone not to drink and I've been fine so far so it doesn't matter."
Clearly this is not true. I've gone a while without drinking before and had 0 withdrawal symptoms. I want to go to rehab or detox but my parents already spend so much money on my epilepsy treatment and I don't want them to feel betrayed. I have always had a high tolerance so when I drink, it's quite a bit. I'm worried about getting seizures from withdrawal.

I know I'm stupid, but I genuinely gave up on staying alive once I felt like nothing helped and I had to be so reliant on everyone around me. I still feel that way, but I'm tired of it affecting my family/relationships.

Does anyone have any advice for me or healthy alternatives, detoxing at home, etc?

TLDR: I use alcohol as a crutch for anxiety, I want to quit but I'm terrified that withdrawal will make the seizures worse and don't know what to do. :(

My dog is a 9yo female australian shepherd, we'll call her L. When L was no longer a puppy, she began fighting with our other dogs. She has always been easy to train, but we couldn't get her to stop initiating fights. Our other 2 dogs didn't previously fight with each-other, and still didn't after we got L. It was kind of like it was a "me vs. them" situation. The other dogs have since passed away so there's no longer any issues within the house, but I want to be able to take L to the dog park without worrying.

Any Advice?

For additional context: she only fought with the other dogs occasionally, it didn't seem related to food and she's completely fine around people.

The other 2 dogs were both around 8yo when we got L, one was a male aussie and the other was a female yorkie.