Can't tell if I'm delusional about my relationship? (Not trusting my own emotions)
Lately I'm having so much trouble believing my boyfriend loves me and I'm acting super distant. I can't stop either. I feel very flat and depressed. I'm worried he's noticing and it's hurting his feelings which isn't what I want.
Growing up my mom was highly unpredictable (going constantly from normal and loving to raging at everyone) her love felt very conditional and unsafe.
I think this is part of why I can't believe my boyfriend loves me. We haven't been able to spend time together because of work and I'm taking it very personally even though it's not really his fault. I'm feeling used for sex by him and like he doesn't care but I also don't think that's the case?
I guess I just don't trust my own brain. It's like it's always saying "No one loves you, you're being used and you have nothing to offer. You should just pull away and leave to save face" Does anyone get similar feelings in relationships?