I am so broken by prior relationships that I see everyone that shows interest in me as a bad faith actor // Cereal with estrogen pills
There's this woman I met a week ago and she's super into me and I don't know how to deal with it. Internally I constantly doubt that she's actually being serious when she says that she is crushing on me or when she says that I'm a cool person she looks up to. In the very moment in which I am writing this she is being super vulnerable with me and I just fear that there is some evil bad faith behind this to use me for my body, my love or something else. I really don't want to just assume everyone is evil and doubt that someone can truly like me and want to be with me, but past experiences have showed me that if something moves this fast it's a terrible sign. I also want to get into therapy again so I can speak about this with someone. I hope one day I can trust again and accept that love is something people do without wanting to use someone.