I spent years trying to get high and now I’m just trying to feel awake
I swear opioids completely destroyed my idea of what normal energy feels like. Back then I could work a full shift, stay up half the night, drive across town for dumb shit, barely eat and somehow still wake up ready to do it again. Now I’m clean and if I sleep wrong my whole day is cooked. It’s weird because mentally I’m in a way better place but physically I still feel like my body never fully rebooted. Some stuff helps a little like caffeine, better sleep, random supplements, natural 7oh occasionally and that’s helped the most so far but it’s still this constant balancing act of trying to feel like an actual functional adult without leaning too hard on anything.
I want to know if anyone else feels like recovery turned into chasing energy instead of chasing a high.