it feels like there's no colour in this world anymore. genuinely it's more desaturated. whole world's flooded with blue and grey. i shouldn't have tried to be "more normal". this wouldnt have happened if i didnt hold back my desperation and neediness during the relationship. next time ill go all in.
hey have you ever fantasized about being surgically transformed into an auxillary set of organs inside your beloved and you'd have enough independent neurons left to think and be aware, and to kinda talk to them(like just generally communicate emotions and stuff) you would be partially connected to their central nervous system and you'd be all safe and happy inside them and constantly feeling them so its like an eternal cuddle but so much better because ur like integrated into them.