I don't really trust my instincts anymore. I've been seeing a very nice person after leaving my NEx. But I find myself always questioning.
Any dating advice / red flags to look for so I don't repeat old patterns?
I left my NEx recently and 12 days ago I moved my stuff out of the house in secret and went no contact. I have my own place now in a different city and he won't be able to find me and terrorize me anymore. It's so shocking to me how little empathy he actually has. I thought he was a caring person but he doesn't know how to care about someone - everything turns back on him.
But I am still doubting myself, believing the lies he told me about myself to help himself feel better. I really just despise him now, but I still find myself opening our chat and tempted to unblock him. I remember before the abuse started how incredible it felt to be held in his arms. I could cry just thinking about it.
A year ago we got married. Now I have a file of evidence on my drive against him and it's been a month since I left him. He doesn't know where I live and I'm safe and I'm free. Why do I still want to call him? What is wrong with me? Why would I burn down the safety I have built for myself to talk to someone who threatened to kill me?