Yet another rant.
Hi fellow redditors
M20 here,
Well I know that I got Paruresis at least since I was eight, which is a very long time. I have not even an idea of how life is without it.
Since I am 16 this awful thing really limits my social life very hard.
I had to cancel plans from my friends with multiple activities things like Skiing, Cycling Tours and more. I am afraid that in the long run this might cause them to see me as someone that doesn't want to do anything.
I wish I could finally have the courage to tell my friends but till now I am fucking scared to do that. I have severe trust issues because of my horrible past life. They know absolutely nothing about that so far.
I went to multiple Doctors hoping they could "fix me" both regarding my anxiety issues and my Paruresis but that was probably a too high expectation. I had to stop the threapy, because it was going absolutely nowhere.
I have thought multiple times about giving everything up, but I still have a tiny spark of hope in me.
For years I wish for exaxtly nothing but all this anxiety garbage to disappear. That will probably never happen -Silly me!