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I got sniped…

I saw her across the way… as I walked passed her, I saw that she was cute… even though she was a little dusty… it was love at first sight…

The first bite something like… the feeling is too right…

Something like whenever the lights is too bright…

I don’t want it too sweet it could ruin my appetite…

But a large part of me wanna see what it would be like…

Sniped

Right in the middle of my fantasy… was a planted seed…

The P.I.M.P. ….

The free… to be whoever you wanna be… instead of believing the wannabes…

Freeze, in the moments like these… and take it for what it’s worth…

Indeed, what they want you to see… is probably her purse.

-LEAD 🥶

I have an incredible knack for losing… it’s a skill at this point…

Going around thinking I’m hot shit then BAM! It’s over! I’ve lost!

The only thing is, I’ve never been much of a sore loser and maybe that’s a problem…

My failures continue to haunt me everyday and even when I’m winning something comes and crashes the party… brings me down and humiliates me, humbles me… and leaves me scrambling to pick up the pieces…

I don’t know what’s worse: telling people you were wrong or telling them they were right?

What’s more devastating: Never having a chance or missing an opportunity?

The most satisfying failures are when you thought you were so high and everything fit together cleanly for it all the vanish at the snap of finger and it’s all because of some shit that happened 20 years ago…

Those type of failures can leave you desperate, unmotivated… and embarrassed even if you only told your mom…

It’s knowing the haters would laugh if they knew and how all of a sudden your timeline doesn’t make as much sense anymore…

You can lose yourself here… this is where it can become unbearable and reality becomes a nightmare.

And it seems like the sky is falling…

But you must remember…

YOU HAVE THE RECIPE!

You have the mind to overcome anything…

If failure is an art… then sometimes you have to use it to paint success…

And if you can paint success with a bucket of failure…

Well then… You’re a Bad Motherfucker!

-LEAD 🥶

When I think about Tim I keep saying to myself he didn’t deserve to die… and I think about how it should’ve been someone like me instead…

After all… Time was well accomplished and skilled. Well mannered and handsome.. He was strong and wise and a Great Friend! A father and everything else you could think of…

And to think I’m still here on this earth with one less person like that is something that devastates me…

I’m labeling this “Sensitive Topic “ because it’s about my personal life…

4am tomorrow I will wake up and iron my clothes…
Check on my mom… it’s the last week of school…

I got some Pokémon cards ima pass out… to the kids…

I’m just thankful to feel I belong even though I know it will change after awhile…

When things are understood sometimes it’s best not to say anything…

-LEAD 🥶

215 pounds of some muscle but at 37 I don’t worry so much about my weight as I do my mental…

I’m up at 4am swimming laps, drinking coffee and using Ai to keep my mind right…

I make sure to read everyday in the sauna and eat a balanced breakfast…

Quick reminder: They Will Hate You No Matter What!

Sometimes it’s from your own people for thinking differently, sometimes it’s from the enemy you expect…

No matter what, continue to keep smiling and being different… DO NOT ALLOW THE INTERNET TO DISCIPLINE YOU!

Don’t let it define you… be who you want to see in the mirror…

The dilemma of trying to figure out if the whole world hated you or loves you can be frightening…

The answer is Trust No One… you don’t owe them anything…

The only person you owe is yourself…

Make up your own mind about who you are…

Read a book, go to the gym, holla at lil shorty and see if you can get that number…

Life is shorter than you can imagine and could end at any moment…

If you’re reading this then get on your grind… Fuck what a hater got to say.

-LEAD 🥶

When I first heard a Drake record back in college 20 years ago… I was fascinated with how he could switch from rapping to singing at what it seemed like a moment’s notice…

How could one be so catchy and in tune with what I was feeling at the time…

It was different from the typical Trap Raps and even the Swag era… it was undeniably refreshing. It was fun and inspiring and relatable in a way most people hadn’t experienced from that era of popular rap…

I guess at the time Gucci Mane and Jeezy were the talk of the town… Drake dropped some cool stuff that banged but he was simmering… bubbling even…

But not bursting hot…

And so him being so open and blatantly honest about his life had more weight in my opinion…
I’m not here to tell you that Drake is someone you should listen to…

I’m only here to tell you the truth.. and that is Drake is a Tortured Artist…

As a Man who has had a particularly interesting past with a formidable future I can see the appeal of Drake as a commentator on Relationships….

I don’t think he’s faking the pain he presents in the way his detractors say or feel… he’s not being performative the way most people think he is…

Drake at his heart is an Actor… One could argue that’s what he always wanted to be… But instead he started making music. Even that is relatable to me because I acted in High School, Performed Spoken Word, Tried Stand Up, Even Recorded Music…

If I had broke through in any of those specialties I would’ve attempted to stick with it… at least in hindsight…

For what Drake is as a Pop Rapper he comes off at times as just doing a job. But when you are a literal business and brand… and everyone in the world knows who you are… how do you define yourself?

He chose music… and with all his flaws and criticisms I respect that he chose music.

He didn’t switch to acting and he didn’t hide… Drake faced it all head on… and even continues to address his public grievances… and even some private ones…

Again I’m not telling you to listen to Drake… and it may seem like I’m sympathizing with him… maybe I am…

But hear me out, I think he is owed a little grace for at least trying to get our attention and continue to make music…

And I honestly think it comes from a place of sincerity even if it’s not always agreeable…

With that said… I DONT REALLY LISTEN TO DRAKE.

But I’m not above checking out his new music…

Sometimes it’s Bad… Sometimes it’s Pretty Good.

And so this brings me to where we are now with Drake…

Did he sellout his soul? I guess maybe…

Did he lock in and make some good shit this time around? Yeah.

Do I trust him the same way I did when I first heard “Over”? Hell No! 😂

But I see the appeal and believe he’s being somewhat honest about how he feels while enduring a lifestyle that is predicated on how popular he is…

It’s to the point now where he needs the co-sign of people who were his supporters…
I mean look at Druski especially, if he doesn’t pop then it wouldn’t matter if he’s an ally…

Folks was so busy tryna be rappers 20 years ago that they forgot the biggest industry in the Black Community is… COMEDY!

Ice Cube made Friday for a reason…

I’m saying, mature people who listen to Drake aren’t doing it because of the hype necessarily, they honestly connect to those deeper elements that get masked by the controversies…

At the end of the day he’s a Brand but he’s also a fairly transparent artist… as we’ve gotten to witness his journey over the years, he’s had some ups and downs but he’s always expressed himself mostly through music…

And that’s something I feel only a Tortured Artist would do.

-LEAD 🥶

Uhh this shit hard as hell…

I’m not a big Drake fan but damn he cooked…

I’m probably not gonna listen to the other 2 albums for awhile…

But ICEMAN is the album everybody has asked Drake for…

Crazy bangers, beat switches… and of course the Iconic flow… it’s all there!

It’s a 9/10 for me… I didn’t expect it to be good at all… but was pleasantly surprised..

Now I’m boutta go text a few of exes… the ones that ain’t blocked me yet 🥶