Last hurrah, can’t drink again
I told myself I was quitting and would give myself one last hurrah that was supposed to be just a couple of drinks and ended with me puking out of an uber and losing my bra at a bar so that’s fun lol. I was on such a health kick and starting a new job in a week and had set a date to stop drinking and gave myself permission to have one last drinking night and of course I took that to mean complete self annihilation. I don’t know why I did this to myself. I am now feeling so much shame and regret and it was not worth it. I just wish I could have a normal relationship with alcohol and clearly this has shown I can’t. I shouldn’t have even given myself permission it was like I took that to mean an all out bender when it should’ve just been a fun night with friends. Never again.