Did I do this wrong?
Position: Carts
Context: a week and a half before 4th of July week, I raised concerns of me being a good fit for the July 4th rush due to my physical limitations and overall health on 3 separate occasions, all three of them my manager assured me 2 people would be on the entire week for my position. On Tuesday (my first day working this week) there was not two people on, and I was told by the same manager that they don’t put 2 people on morning shifts at all. I work 8am-1pm. Based on the schedule that she had already created before me raising my first concern, she never planned on having two people on like she reassured me she would after already having the schedule done for this week. On Wednesday about 2/3rds done with my shift, I was on my 15 crying on the phone to my mom and sponsor trying to get guidance on just making it through my shift, a co-worker happened to notice me, they took it to management, management told me to go home and not come back until I am in a better headspace to continue working. I do wanna add, the manager who told me to go home approached me with genuine concern and I did confirm they do want me to come back when I’m ready. When I had to tell the front end manager who was filling in for the other front end manager, she said “Ok, good, ba bye” and made a shewing gesture with her hand.
This is one of many instances that have formed a pattern of not feeling welcome or wanted at this store and bordering just not feeling very safe at all. I do wanna add that I’m in recovery, I’m 8 months clean, and I work a 12-step program so I’m literally all about what I could’ve done to contribute to this happening, and it’s sometimes hard for me to get the bigger picture and all contexts at once. I’m just wondering if any of you guys have experienced this or something similar.