i hate phone calls and my social battery is so low
my social battery is so dead that even just seeing ppls stories of them out drains me and i geniuenly wonder how ppl are able to go out with others so often.
Before I continue I want to say that I love my friend and in person I could hang out with them for hours- but on call? No thank you.
I was by myself chilling on a walk listening to music and texting my friend at the same time occasionally when she suddenly calls instead. Idk what it is about phone calls, but I DREAD them no matter who it is. I stared at the notif for it for like 10 seconds before answering it and we stayed on call for maybe 40 minutes but the entire time i was antsy becuz i would’ve rather listen to music while on my walk. She just wanted to talk abt sum stuff not too important an chill on call in general while she also did her errands , and maybe thats her idea of fun but def not mine.
Sometimes i get scared to reply to her texts cuz im afraid she’ll call instead. I find it so hard to focus while on a phone call because I’m typically already pre occupied with something else but its not so important that i cant take the call so i end up feeling bad if i say “sorry i cant call rn”.
I did tell her one time that i don’t like phone calls and explained why but i guess she still does it. I want to tell her again but I dont want to risk our friendship and make her think its personal or make her think im completely unreachable now because I don’t want to seem like that. I just don’t like “chilling” on call. Im so indecisive🥲.
I know i should be appreciative that i have friends who want to talk to and call me- and i am- but i just mentally cannot handle phone calls no matter who it is.
maybe this is why i only have 2 friends LOL, everybody else drains me so fast and i like being alone too much.