Why does my family hate me?
I am the oldest and I feel like since i was younger my parents made me the third parent. They would ask my advice on any important decisions but they would also treat me like they were afraid of my anger. My bad feelings when i am upset are shut down and not talked through. They are very avoidant with my emotions and it feels me with rage.
I dont see them so often so it’s not too bad but they affect my relationship with my siblings because I see them always take my siblings side when my siblings and i get into a fight. Its like they just label me unstable and they dont want to see my point of view. I see this with my father especially, he makes me so sad and angry because he cannot hide that he prefers my siblings to me. He treats me horribly and acts confused when i am sad about it. He expects me to know everything, to guide everyone and make everyone’s emotions calm but nobody looks out for my emotions. Except my siblings sometimes.
It makes me depressed.