Just looking for advice, I guess 🤷🏻♂️
I'm mid 40's starting a new career but wondering if it's the right choice.
I was good at things as a kid. I remember having identifiable talents (maths, spelling); I was above average in this or that. But that seems to have faded as I've grown up and as an adult I can't really think of anything that makes me special. I'm sure someone will reply that none of us are really special, but that;s not true. There are lots of people out there who have something that they stand out for.
I've never really had any career success, and I think this is the reason why. I know you can train and practice to build a skill, but that's always felt kind of empty compared to having a natural talent.
I'm currently at University in a tech discipline and feel like I'm drowning there. We have a ton of material to absorb and put into practice in assignments, and it feels like most other people are able to get through it better than I can. It's like they're operating on another level. Now I'm scared to ask questions and look like an idiot...but I think I probably am below average compared to them even though we're always told to ignore feelings like that.
I'm getting decent grades, but only because I have time to grind through the material. I don't feel clever enough to work professionally; I can see that I'm not switched on or sharp like others. I kinda feel like I should give up on trying to ever achieve anything because even if I achieve something, I'm always going to feel empty until I find something I have a natural talent for.
I have lots of things to be grateful for: health, enough money, living situation, family. I'm at a University that constantly gives me new things to learn about and access to experts. But I just feel like shit and not sure I want to go through another year of it.
(Sorry this is such a much me-focussed post. It's just the reality of the situation right now)
Anywho, have at it r/careeradvice