u/Late-Custard-3998

I was always in limelight one way or other. Not bragging about it but just opening my chapters of life. Beside that ,i lost around 15 kg and everyone keep on asking me that how did i do it, what am i doing extra bcz they are also doing but there's is no progress... but coming back to topic, 15 kg is a lot and it's visible.

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What i keep on seeing in gist is black enegry coming for me. They try to enter my room with all those black hands coming and black smoke but i shut the door. I see me running and they're chasing.

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I don't really wear any dhago or jewellery to protect myself. But i am so so scared about today's dream. I saw a girl being murder bcz she spoke how happy she was. And the ghost was a tantrick girl and she looks me from watch glass and i am scareddd so badddd. I wanna focus to preserve my energy.

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Also i feel privacy is power, so i don't usally share what i am doing or next moves. But the physical change is visible, ma napugeko thauma pani yo kura pugeko hunxa and every teacher dekhi sabai seniors asks me regarding my change.

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What should i do??? I want to sleep sound. I was thinking maybe i should meet some gurus or baba for guidance.

Do you guys wonder like me that sometimes we do want a person next to us but sometimes all we want to do is for ourselves bcz we haven't fully reached our potential.

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There have been times where i thought i was in relationship and i really loved them but as i am adulting, the relationship which i gave the word " love " was a heavier word. Yes, indeed there were times where i was happy but was that the love, i wonder.

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Sometimes, when i see couple around me and my friends relationships , i starting yearning one. But i don't feel that i really want a relationship but all i want is to be engaged in new things , create and socialise sometimes.

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I feel the people in society influences and makes a huge impact to force a person to have a relationship of any kind including love and marriage, when they actually don't even want one.

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What do u say regarding this people???