u/LateBlacksmith6659

It just started and i already hate it, honestly i wish summer break was over, at least during school i had some routine and stuff to do, unfortunetly i dont have any friends, and all i do during the day is eat. i think i gained like 10 lb already. i literally wake up at like 7am, and watch yt or netflix or just play on my phone until like 5pm when my mom gets home from work, and then i eat more. Its a nightmare, honestly, the only thing that helps me pass time and makes me feel good is eating.

For context im 16, and 160 cm/5,3 ft and weight 50 kg/110 lb, so technically im not overweight but im like a little chubby, so it'd be nice to lose some weight, but at this point its not even my main goal. Ive struggled with food for as long as i can remember, but lately it got worse, to the point where i cant control it at all.

So not long ago i was in a hospital for almost a month, and i lost some weight there (yk hospital food), like 5 kg. I got back like 3 weeks ago and ever since im home its been worse. I guess hospital helped me a bit with getting a routine, and eating at stable hours, but at home its just a nightmare. i tried controlling what i ate, eating at specific hours, but i just cant control myself. im not even hungry or anything like that, im not starving myself, im eating well, i think.

Ive always struggled with eating more than i should in one sitting but right now its horrible. i can eat like 2000 kcal in one seating in an hour. everyday. i feel terrible. its not even about the mental aspect anymore, its physical. Like after every binge i feel horrible, nauseous, my stomach hurts, sluggish. Like a week or two weeks ago i had the worst night ever, it was after a 3 day binge, i couldnt sleep at night because i was so nauseous. I cant do it like this. Im so exhausted and i dont know what to do.