I can't take it anymore man.
I'm 19 at some mediocre highschool here in Romania.
Just been focusing on studying for the baccalaureate exam but I just can't keep up with the mess that is my classroom.
There are exactly 39 days left until the exam.
Today was white shirt day, basically everyone comes with a white shirt and a marker so we can share signatures on each other's shirts.
I'm just tired about the fact that I can't stand up for myself. I'm ashamed by the fact that I'm 6'5" and can't stand up for myself.
Some girl drew nipples on my shirt and a dick and ruined the entire shirt.
Math class comes around, I'm the only guy in class that is good at maths and only I offer to solve problems on the whiteboard at every math class.
The loud douchebag group sees this and instantly rocks my shit by drawing dicks and writing insults on my shirt while the teacher was in class.
Had to walk with that shit on me all the way home since that was the only shirt I had on.
I never done nothing to these guys, all I probably did was just come off as the weird guy that gets no girls in 9th grade and that stereotype never went away.
My entire mood is ruined and I just can't feel nothing else but shame.
Tried ignoring it by studying the entire afternoon but it doesn't help.
Mom said that memories are good and bad and it is what it is. Dad said that in 10 years from now I'll forget how these guys look and I'll forget mostly everything.
My parents are right, it's just that this completely demoralized me.
I don't want to go to school anymore but I just have to keep up with it, stick my head to the ground and keep working.