u/Least_Row1269

Been feeling super stuck and unwanted anywhere. Messed up so bad with a relationship, so I’m back home.
And found my room given away, so I stay with relatives an hour away and I feel like a burden there. Despite being told countless times that I’m welcome whenever and I am helping my aging grandfather for my aunt, but I know everyone’s annoyed with me.

I’m a late bloomer, so big first serious relationship, kind man, Godly, but lowkey misogynistic. (Probably not lowkey if it’s an issue such as that)
Cause he was perfect, bought a house to build a life together, but I just can’t get over that last part and I feel that I may be too chronically online to even focus on that so much.
I did enjoy our space together, but I was still awkward with him. I loved having my own home and the freedom.

And my birthday was this Friday (27 years old woo!) still celebrating it and wanted to see if anyone wanted to hangout with me. My friends are an hour away from me so couldn’t do that. It was also last minute. No one bit at the invitation, so spent the day by myself. And just kept thinking about how fun it would be to celebrate back with my relationship.
My extended family believes that things are still fine for me, so I can’t help but cry.

I just want a prayer or support, I’m scared that things will get worse for me and this was all a stupid decision.