Hi!
As the title says, i was wondering what you think about smoking just one joint at night before sleeping. I'll give you some context:
I'm 25F and i've smoked for the past 10 years regularly. Never a dab or edible or something else, just flowers. I've also taken some tolerance breaks of 1 month or so in this 10 years with no major side effects. Now i'm on day 4, stopped cold turkey after some really intrusive thoughts and a little mental breakdown, after a week spent abroad where i abused (it was legal there, not so much where i live). I understood that weed sometimes worsen my really mild OCD, making me not able to control my thoughts in a healthy way, even if I'm not stoned. I usually smoked for two purposes mainly:
- to eat more, since i'm underweight and i've been there my whole life, since i was a child (i think i never really liked eating as a thing, i know i'm weird lol).
- to not dream, since i make the most lucid nightmares or strange dreams ever and wake up the next morning more exhausted and annoyed, trying to figure it out why i dreamt this shit or the other.
I understand that, regarding the first point, is not sustainable on the long run. I have to learn how to eat properly and even though i make healthy meals, often they are just not enough for me to keep pushing at the gym or feeling enough energized.
I just graduated at my master degree and one of the other reason i stopped is because i noticed how now, that i don't have a fixed term exam or a decided path, i have to underatand what i want to do with my life (interviews, applications, job offers etc), and weed was making me less proactive.
One note: i'm the shame of every real stoner, believe me. I live with my boyfriend and 5 grams lasts us like 7-10 days. We make what we call "corretti", basically joints with tobacco and 0.2 grams of weed. I'm happy i can get stoned, even after all these years, with just that.
So, going back to the question, i was wondering, do you think smoking a joint like that, just at night before sleeping, may hinder my capacity of finding a job/being more proactive?
I mean, i feel fine now at day 4 and i won't be smoking tonight, and i know i can manage, but what do you think of using just to end the day? To sleep better?
Thank you so much to everyone, i love this community and reading you has helped me a lot!