Girlfriend with schizoid struggling badly
I’m not very good with reddit but my girlfriend (22) has SZPD, MDD, PDD, ADHD and most definitely autism. I am on the opposite end of this spectrum with things such as Bipolar, NPD and BPD.
She has been struggling so much recently with her apathy and suicidal ideation. She gains no enjoyment from anything anymore, it doesn’t matter what it is she feels nothing and as a result she has become extremely suicidal to the point the only thing keeping her alive is not wanting me to be alone.
Her current psych seems out of her depth with her specific issues and she has been ghosted by a new one. The fact she even messaged this new psych took so much energy and I don’t think she has the energy to do it again.
We are long distance (different continents) and we can only afford to visit three times a year so there is only so much I can do through a phone and she often won’t open up until I force her to.
I desperately want to help but I can’t fully relate to what she feels as my depressive episodes are so different to hers, I don’t feel emotional empathy and very little cognitive so I find it hard to help emotionally like she needs as logic doesn’t help her as she tells me she already the logical side planned out she just needs the emotional support.
She tells me she doesn’t feel like a human being as she doesn’t feel anything and a “nothing existence”.
I don’t know if this will matter much but she is also a prodigy child with a 150IQ, but due to repeated trauma she essentially gave up in school and ended up only with a GED, even then she tells me she has no passion or drive for any kind of career as she gets no enjoyment from it.
The only thing she feels anything positive for is me and we are deeply codependent on each other which for this case helps.
Her CPTSD has been affecting her a lot also and we were extremely unhealthy to say the least for a while which gave her a lot of issues that she feels she can’t address as she doesn’t want to fall apart because in her mind she has to support me and provide for me or I won’t be able to stay alive or recover.
I truthfully would struggle greatly but I want to put on a brave face for her and help her the way she has me for so many years and devote every second to helping her recover even a little.
Medication wise she is on Wellbutrin but I have expressed that she would benefit from an antipsychotic, mood stabiliser or adhd medication to help her with her dopamine and serotonin but it’s not like you can just tell a psych that but it seems they don’t understand her or how serious this is.
Apologies for rambling I have tried to fit in as much context as possible so any help at all would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.