I'm 28. I feel like my whole life is a mess and falling apart right now. Every problem just hit me in the face at once and i cant deal with it anymore.
Work wise, got into argument with mom, she cut me off of her business, so no salary from her, im ok still got laundromat to deal with which is mine. but still got alot of loan to pay for. Health wise, recently just got diagnosed with HPV, idk where i got it, didnt even get any actions for years, expensive meds. Relationship wise, been with him for 4 years, trash. when he was here all good, he went back to his country 2 years ago, trash, freaking avoidant, saying love you, but action aint it. still trying to let go but cant, stupid me, idfk why.
So basically, everything in aspect of life is hitting me all at once, idk what to do. i lowkey want all of this to end and disappear. i want to end myself, but i know for sure that i dont have a gut to do it. but i just wish it would end it all. I just need someone who can tell me what to do and what should I do, cuz im running out of options, been sitting inside the house for 2 days, and im losing it, i dont even want to go out, i cut my friends off everybody cuz i dont want to talk to them cuz i know they aint gon help and they just gonna tell me everything is gonna be fine.
But trust me, im not gonna end myself, i want to but i know i cant do it. i just need a way out. i just need solution or what do i have to do.