I was driving down a two lane road after a tiring week from another city, which I went to for work and came back from, kind of in a hurry. The road is dangerous, a two lane road where cars come from the opposite direction. When trying to overtake a truck I failed and almost crashed into a guy who had his family with him. He looked like he was between 35 to 40. He almost got under the truck but we both somehow survived.
I checked the mirror and he stopped, so I said I won't run away from this and I also stopped. He turned around and parked his car next to mine. I immediately started apologizing when I got out of my car and he started swinging slaps at me, saying "why do you drive like this, guys like you kill people." I just kept stepping back and trying to de-escalate. I felt like I had no right to hit him back. I am 25 by the way. His wife and another guy who stopped his car moved him away from me before he kicked my car bumper and damaged it.
Ever since I got home I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. I don't know what even happened or what I should have done. On one hand I think I should have at least tried to stop him from hitting me. On the other hand I almost killed the guy, his wife and a toddler they had with them. The situation is horrible in every way. One moment I feel like a coward, another moment I feel like I did the right thing. Even if the situation were reversed and I was physically stronget than him and bigger I probably would not have hit him back, I would have just tried to stop him, which I did not manage to do today. Now I just want to forget this and move on but ever since I got home I have been under my covers, barely able to move, feeling so anxious, and I can't really tell anyone close causr I will be judged very badly I think on both the reaction i had and the accudent I almost caused