Extreme hunger and guilt
Hi everyone,
I officially committed to recovery 8 days ago, and I think I’m already experiencing EH. It started on the third day, right after my dad’s birthday. On his actual birthday, there was a family celebration with food, but I still wasn’t fully ready to let go, so I ate a small amount.
The next day, though, I couldn’t take it anymore. I ended up eating more of the leftovers from the celebration. Since then, on top of my recovery intake, I’ve probably been eating a lot more than usual. I honestly can’t even tell you half of what I’ve eaten because it’s all such a blur.
What makes me feel even worse is what I’m eating and how it feels out of control. It feels like everything I thought I knew about eating has completely gone out the window. The guilt afterward is overwhelming, like I’ve completely lost control of myself.
I’ve been bloated and swollen in my limbs to the point of pain, and yet I still can’t seem to stop eating. I don’t even really know what I’m looking for by posting this. Advice? Reassurance? Your own experiences? Maybe just some idea of when this might ease up, or how to cope with the physical discomfort.
Right now, I just feel overwhelmed and unsure, and I’m trying to stay committed to recovery even when it feels scary.
(This is an edit of a previous post I made that got taken down)