burnt out and tired rant
i’ve been working at my location for a few years now. many of my coworkers that i originally started out with left and now i’m the only one still in the company. at first, i thought i could seize the opportunity to move up the ladder and maybe get promoted higher but i was more than wrong. super dumb and naive, if i may add actually. anyways, tldr we used to have an ASM but she left (thank god) due to better opportunities for her so ever since then, i’ve been helping out my SM a lot and with the store. not only because i really wanted a promotion but because i care very deeply for my manager. lately though, I’ve been feeling very overwhelmed and overworked after being “promoted” to full time (with no benefits other than accruing vacation hours faster). when my SM was gone for almost half a year, i was left with my new coworkers to train them BY MYSELF as we didnt have an SM full time in the store at that time. i made sure the store was still making our KPIs to the best of my abilities. i made sure to coach the team and give them advice on how we could win as a team so when our SM came back, she wouldn’t be too deep in a hole. looking back at it now, this was a massive mistake. months after she came back, i’m still doing everything by myself. i’m still telling the other BAs the tasks we need to do and creating new ones so we’re not bored out of our minds. i’m still going over their numbers with them and giving them pointers on how to improve. i’m doing all of this while not getting paid to be a manager and for my manager to tell me she doesn’t think im fit to be a manager because of “how blunt and direct my conversations are”. i’m just a CC and i’m doing things WAYYYYYYYYYYY beyond whats expected of me and all i got after keeping my location afloat BY MYSELF for half a year with no manager pay, all i fucking get is a $0.27 raise which was the same fucking thing i got the previous year. my manager is one of the best managers i’ve ever had which is why i’ve stayed so long but i’m so tired of being used. i don’t even make enough even with full time hours to afford anything. and when i express my concerns all i get is gaslit and passive aggressive remarks or being talked about behind my back to my other coworkers. it’s been so bad to the point my mental health has declined a lot because i feel like whatever i do will never be good enough for anyone or anything. i love my coworkers, they give me the energy to keep going. they tell me they think of me as more of a manager than our actual manager. i literally trained these girls more than my actual manager trained them. and i never get a thank you from the higher ups. i never get my flowers and i’m so tired