I’m manifesting my sp back when things got from bad to worst but I always had full faith it’s just the bridge… but 5 hours ago I saw SP posted a 3P. Now I’m devastated.
I’ve been working on manifesting him back after we broke off 2 weeks ago, and now there’s even a 3P… he replaced me in just 2 weeks.
I’m not sure if this is normal but I know I’m devastated. I really need help
Felt rejected because of 3D SP. We separated when he still likes me a lot and that was about a little over a week ago. Back story I won’t get into it.
I was manifesting him, being in and out of state but most times I will randomly imagine us together (back together and I address him as bf/spoke to him as if separation was in the past) and it was unforced.
Then suddenly, I saw SP posting an ig story with the song lyrics of being unable to move on, waiting on calls. I was so happy because I see it as a positive movement. I added a song to me and SP’s shared playlist on missing him (didn’t think much of it). Then a few hours later, I found out sp hid his Instagram story from me and unsaved our Spotify blend playlist. It’s almost like a slap/rejection like my sp telling me I’m overthinking and he doesn’t feel that way. I did text him but he didn’t reply me at all, but went to watch my Instagram story.
I felt my 1 week of progress was wasted and it felt like 3D SP is pulling further away from me. I feel devastated and could not see how I can flip this around anymore.
Help needed.
So I slept in the state of being back with him, it was so natural and fuzzy. I woke up feeling like I don’t care, then my colleague called and asked how was things between him and I, if we spoke.. I told her all the old story (did not go into very deep details) but I feel like it was so triggering when she asked because I thought I had let the old story go and did not want to be reminded. I ended up feeling better once I told her what happened.
And now, I feel nothing again. Like I don’t care anymore again.. just some anxiety in the background, and I had stalked the 3D again minutes ago… no change no movement.
I just dk what is this feeling of feeling nothing. Am I in the state or am I not?
As title states, I’ll be living in the end when I recite affirmations of him (I was stable before I left home) but when I reached outside (I was out shopping), I suddenly had very strong “we’re not tgt, he’s not here” feelings that I have trouble getting out of.
So basically I kept wavering. One moment I keep feeling like I wanna text him that I can’t stop thinking about him, but next moment I feel like he will text me soon.
I am lost, don’t know what to do anymore
I’ve known and studied Neville’s works for a long time and I used to be super good at manifesting, manifested 2 SPs into a rs and all but went downhill ever since my 2022 breakup.
Background: I met current sp not long after I breakup with a guy I was done with. I knew I wasn’t ready for rs (I don’t believe I deserve a good man/rs so even if things are gg well, mentally I’ll be sabotaging/doing extreme stuff in 3D to push SP away - eg I like to keep saying insecure stuff to get constant reassurance and tire him out, hoping it will push him away/make him leave even tho I rlly like him). Like literally when things are gg good, I’ll trip up and think “why isn’t he leaving me yet?” So a lot of times, guys suddenly ghost me, they suddenly say they lost int, etc etc. Thing is I really like this sp and he’s a very good man. 2 weeks after we started talking, he ended things (cuz of my insecurities and distrust in man so he’s tired). So it’s like I’m in a state where I always constantly expects the other person to leave sooner or later so I cannot sustain any relationship.
He rlly likes me too but still ended things…. And I want him back, but I don’t think it’s a good time now so I didn’t jump into full on manifesting him back mode.
All along I have trouble manifesting SPs back and I know I really wanted to heal this trauma/pain if not even if he returns, I’ll still act the same. But I just don’t know how and where to start to heal this. Also, I know 3D circumstances don’t matter but despite saying he likes me, he made this decision sound adamant (I know this is me giving power to external things). I also always have fear that if I take too long, he will end up with someone else so I’m suffering on a time crunch and I’ll keep stalking 3D, to see if anything is happening.
I know I’m acting like someone in a state of separation. So any advice really helps.