Insomnia and Depression an
I had to move out around last November essentially because my dad was drug crazed lunatic who beat me.
Since then I’ve had to work and obviously run my own flat. However, even since before I moved out I’ve had really bad trouble with sleep and depression for obvious reasons and I’ve kinda just tried to power through it but it’s never worked and I’ve always been too exhausted and miserable to keep doing the job. Not even I feel like the job is too hard I just become a kinda husk. I’ve at times shut down and zoned out because I’m extremely tired and become very randomly suicidal.
So I’m constantly out of jobs and have tried going to the doctors for help. They’ve pretty much continuously ignored me and just referred me to someone who refers me to someone who says they can’t help. The sleep issue they recently (about a week) ago prescribed antihistamines for sleep which don’t really seem to work and just make me wake up from the little sleep i do get feeling absolutely terrible. Anyway, my main thing is telling UC and PIP is daunting to me cause i’ve heard stories of how they can be. Like they won’t accept that Ive tried to get help but its not gone anywhere. And i think about things like when i started with it all they asked me if i have any mental or physical issues but i said no even though ive had them for years cause i was embarrassed to feel like i was doing some kinda sympathy thing. Prideful i guess. I don’t know if this post is understandable but regular UC payments are simply not enough to survive on and although I really do try i just can’t get into work or keep at it so i need some kinda financial help and i really am stuck on what to do. Im 19 single male since i know those are factors in UC.