Help!
Hi guys,
Im writing here today as I think I have agoraphobia, it’s developed recently and I have multiple law exams to attend to in 3 weeks. My aversion of going to the doctor or a psychiatrist has meant I have neglect all physical and mental health concerns I need to probably check out.
Im not sure what changed it, but I rarely leave the house now. I order groceries and alcohol, I would go into work and be okay for a while, but then start having symptoms of disassociation, dizziness, light headed, sweating and overall panic attack behaviours which meant I had to keep leaving early (which is strange as I was okay for the first half of my shift but couldn’t do the last bit).
This had resulted in me essentially losing my job.
So now I have no reason to leave the house frequently, so I don’t. My roommates asked me to pickup some stuff for a gathering of our friends the other day, I couldn’t.
I’ve gone into shops with friends recently and have been having panic attacks and talking myself up before we go in.
At work I had a panic attack in a meeting but had to act like nothing. Was happening, one other time I had to walk out. This is all really strange for me as im not a socially anxious person and I used to do huge stage performances etc. it’s really weird. I don’t understand. It’s involuntary and affecting my life BADLY.
Im okay with going to my brothers house but thats about it.
I even have a lunch for my mums birthday this week and am anxious about passing out during lunch. Im so anxious about going, and I haven’t felt this way ever before in my life until recently. It’s so so weird.
So thats my trigger i guess im scared of passing out. Which again, not sure why.
Anyways. I have 3, 3 hours law exam coming up which I have to go into uni for in a big room full of people. And im so anxious about it, and for completely different reason than someone would be anxious for an exam lol. I can’t help but entering a shop or enclosed place and freaking out and thinking im going to pass out.
HELP!!
I need to get over this. I need help. But im too scared to go to the doctor because of sitting in the waiting room or being in an enclosed room with them.
What’s wrong with me.
Please help. Anything I can do to get rid of this.
To anyone who had read this, Thankyou. I haven’t told anyone about this, no family or friends. Im alone and im embarrassed. Im the type of person who refuses to go to the doctor or get help. But im helpless here. I don’t know what to do.