How can I get over my boyfriend’s sexual past?
I (24F) and my bf (26M), have been together for just over a year and a half, and I’m really in love with him, and I see a lifelong future with him. But I struggle with RJ really badly. I’ve always been jealous of his most recent ex, they lived together, and had pets together, all the things I want with him, but I don’t have. My bf has had many gfs, and has hooked up with a few girls too, I had a one relationship before him, but I never had any form of intimate relations with him. My bf has slept with many women, and I lost my v to him. It makes me like I’m not special to him at all, just one of many, I gave himself all of me, while he’s done that countless times like it means nothing. I feel worthless, and that we will never have anything special between us. Like I waited for him (not knowing who it was gonna be) but I didn’t give myself away until I knew he was the one, I don’t get why he couldn’t have done the same, clearly intimacy doesn’t mean what it means to me. I want to get over this, because I love him deeply, I ordered a self help book about RJ specifically, but I’m looking for any advice at all until my book arrives. I can’t stop spiralling.