u/LeoDiCristio

I live near Dhanmondi. Ami jokhon class 2-3 te portam, school a jawar shomoy Panthapath traffic signal chilo. That was back in 2009-2010. And honestly that's the last I remember of traffic lights. I don't see them anywhere. Do they still exist somewhere in Dhaka or anywhere in Bangladesh?

This is embarrassing but I need some counseling from you guys. I have been depressed since 2022 (it started post-HSC during my admission phase). I managed to crack a Uni but didn't study at all due to mental exhaustion. Some life experiences, overthinking and other stuff completely screwed up my mind. So I failed exams and soon stopped attending University all together. I've been rotting at home since 2022. I had a part time job and admitted myself for CA with that money to continue alongside bachelors. But I didn't study that part as well. Long story short, I haven't progressed my academics at all due to this depression. I know it's very irresponsible of me but I can't really explain my mental state because I don't really understand it myself. And my family won't take it seriously if I say that something has been eating me from the inside for years. They don't notice me abandoning all acts of selfcare but I'm not mad at them for that. I never want to pressurize my family for anything.

My family doesn't know how cooked I am academically because all this time I have been sort of paying for my own studies. They think that I'm about to graduate. I don't want to tell them the truth as it will break their hearts. I'm thinking of pushing myself and continuing my studies however I can. But I think I'll turn 30 by the time I graduate (I'm 24 currently). Will recruiters reject me if I apply into jobs at 30 with no experience? I'm already suicidal and I don't want this feeling to intensify. I want to get away from this mental hell and become happy and successful one day. But I don't know how.