My compulsion with picking was replaced with another compulsion yesterday
Almost every weekend I spend hours picking at my skin, right now my skin is at it's worst with my arms and legs covered in open wounds. I decided to buy some manuka honey ointment in hopes of healing my wounds quicker. So yesterday I applied the ointment to all the areas, and while I fortunately didn't pick at my skin at all, I started becoming obsessed with reapplying the ointment, specially to the areas where it looked like it had been wiped off somehow even though the area was still sticky so I'm sure the areas were fine. Basically I spent most of the day still obsessed with scanning all the areas of my skin but instead of picking I was just obsessively applying ointment. I guess this is an improvement? But it really hit hard with how it's not just about picking, it's about compulsively doing something with my skin. So now while a lot of my deeper wounds are looking much better, I now need to replace the somewhat expensive tube of manuka honey ointment that should have lasted me far longer than just one day. I just wish I could spend my weekends relaxing like a normal person.