u/Lexiem19

Hey y'all, it's been an interesting week. The vraylar is doing wonders for the voices, but the eye rolling is still persistent. I think I'm stuck with it forever, but it's not as bad as it used to be. My back and leg pain won't subside either, but icy hot and pain meds are keeping me sane. I went to a BBQ at my cousin's house for 4th of July yesterday. We had burgers, chili dogs, potato salad and guacamole with chips!!! For dessert: watermelon and a lovely Vietnamese dish I suck at explaining...think cubed jello and chia seeds with ice and coconut milk. I am off yet again to the grocery store because my husband eats like a horse and my appetite has also unfortunately increased lately. I hope y'all have a great rest of your day!!! I hope your thoughts are safe and sound; that's all we can ask for. Xoxoxoxoxoxo

P.S. - Helen says hello!! 💚

Hey y'all, what a week it's been!!! My mom and I will be going on a mini vacation with a family friend in a couple of weeks. My back and legs are still aching, so I'm worried I won't be able to go!! My meeting with the NP went well, but somehow my mom made it all about her and was ranting. My NP had to steer the conversation back to me, hahahahaha!!!! I'm still hearing voices and the paranoia looms, so now I'm taking the max dose of Vraylar. Crossing my fingers my physical and mental health will get better. Here's me getting ready to run errands in this terrible heat. Hope y'all enjoy the rest of your day!!!! Stay safe!! Xoxoxoxoxoxo

Today is a tough day for me. Father's Day used to be a day of celebration. I lost my father 5 years ago, but it feels like just yesterday I was with him in the hospital. I don't like when people say it gets easier to deal with a loved one's passing. It never gets easier. The pain is always there; an ache that never goes away. I hope those who celebrate cherish their father's. Know that you are loved beyond measure, daddy. As for other life stuff, I'm struggling with voices when I get stressed. My eyes start rolling a bit, and the anxiety is awful. I see my NP next week, so hopefully we can find something to help mitigate these occurences!!! Have a great rest of your day, y'all. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Hey y'all, hope you're doing well!!! I hurt my back, so I haven't been able to work out at the gym. Even walking hurts, so I made an appointment with my doctor tomorrow to see what's going on. I think I might need physical therapy!! I keep thinking my mom will nag me forever, because she's so impatient and likes things done a certain way. I miss having my own apartment, but I do like having help getting things done. I don't know if I'll ever be able to live on my own again, but I'm lucky that my family is so supportive. Have a great rest of your day, guys!!!! Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Hey y'all, what a week it's been!! I had my last meeting with the personal trainer, and I'm still recovering from the session. I was starting to hear voices while we were working out, so we had to take a break. She was very understanding about it and talked it out with me. Afterwards, everything went smoothly. My mom and I are getting along better, but we still have tense moments when I do something she doesn't like. I have never met anyone as impatient as my mom. We've been doing family therapy, and my mom told me she has things she wants to talk to the therapist about. I'm worried she's going to criticize me even more. I am grateful to have somewhere to live that's stable, though. If I didn't have my family, I would definitely be homeless. Wishing y'all a great rest of your Sunday!!! Be well, xoxoxoxoxoxo

Hey y'all, what a week it's been! I finally finished moving, so I've been sleeping much better now that I have a bed. My mom and I have been in contention for a bit, but things are settling down. I've also started my sessions with a personal trainer! They're kicking my butt right now, but I shall persevere!!! I went to my niece's graduation party last night, and ate some yummy Italian food. There's a pool party later today for her birthday, and I'm excited because I can fit into my swimsuit!!! I've been so busy that physically and mentally I'm exhausted, but since I'm sleeping well I'm able to cope better. Wishing y'all an awesome rest of your day!! Thanks for reading!! Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Hey y'all, hope you're doing well. I'm in the process of moving back in with my mom, so things have been chaotic. On a good note, I have taken the first step on my fitness journey and went to the gym!!! I have a personal trainer and everything to keep me accountable. I am not only trying to lose weight, but to get fit for health reasons. It will definitely help with my joints!! I'm really excited and I'm already changing my diet. Crossing my fingers I can maintain this because I really want to push myself and do better in life. Wishing y'all all the best!!! Enjoy the rest of your day!!! Oh, and I got a haircut 😆😆😆

Hey y'all, what a week it's been!! I'm having trouble sleeping again, so I've been at my mom's house trying to recuperate to no avail. I hope once I'm done moving, the bed will make a difference and I can sleep better. My birthday is in 2 days!!! My allergies have been murder so I'm hoping I'm well by Tuesday!! On a lighter note, we made egg rolls for the family! Boy, they are delicious. I wish I could share some with everyone here. I hope y'all have a great rest of your day!!! Xoxoxoxoxoxo

Hey y'all, a big happy mother's day to all the animal mom's, grandmothers, aunties, and other underrepresented peeps out there. I know it can be a tough day for some of us, but one thing about this community is that we all band together in times of need. I always think about how my dad lost my grandmother young, and my mom lost my grandmother to cancer. I wish I could've met these very strong women, but I've heard stories about them that make me feel like I have met them. I'm still adjusting to life outside of the hospital, but strangely I miss the women I met inside. They were such interesting characters, which leads me to believe I need to socialize more. I'm not very good at making friends, but I will try to volunteer and see if I can meet new people. Enjoy this beautiful Sunday, my friends!!! Xoxoxoxoxo

Hey y'all, it's been a week since I've had my phone!! I checked myself into the hospital because I hadn't slept in 3 days. I've been wrought with anxiety because my husband and I will be living in different houses (he doesn't get along with my mom.) The hospital stay was very eye opening and therapeutic. I've been traumatized at my other hospital stays, but this time was different. I am medicated and a lot more stable, and group therapy helped a lot with my problems. I was in an all women's unit, so that was also why I felt more comfortable. I'm glad to be back, and hope y'all enjoy the rest of your day!!!! Xoxoxoxoxoxo

Helen wanted to show off her new shirt!! 😁😁😁