u/Liam0952

Why does god hate us

Sometimes you just gotta hope it gets better.

Last three years of my life have been solidly the worst. Came off of dean’s list, getting involved with good research in my major, and running my first half marathon into the worst academic year of my life, dropping from the research program to focus on classes more, and losing my favorite pastime in running to a knee injury (on the day I turned 20 no less). Then my dog, who spent most nights of his life sleeping in my bed with me, goes into renal failure. Then my parents marriage starts to fall to pieces. Senior year comes, I graduate, after turning around enough academically to stay in my major, I make some great friends, but then the job prospects in my degree go to hell in summer 2025, all my college friends live hours away and my home friends move hours away, my dog passed away, and my parents marriage continued to unravel. Come March this year, I finally catch a break and am in the middle of a hiring process for a job close to home when my mom suddenly moves out and tells me she’s going to file for divorce, so my dad now relies on me to shoulder his emotions, and my brother screws off to his girlfriend’s house every night.

Life just straight up sucks sometimes and feels like a series of kicks to the nuts. At least there’s some things that keep me going. My friends have been great to me, offering me a shoulder should I need it, a place to crash, and checking in frequently. I got the job, and should have it secure for years to come pending a security clearance. I can also finally run without pain, and have started learning Spanish with the hopes of getting C1 fluency sometime next year, and have picked up guitar again.

Hug your friends, hug your pets, hug your family, hug yourself. Try to find some way to hope it gets better, it just might.

Grilled chicken with (not enough) butter sauce, sautéed peppers & onions, and jasmine rice, with an IPA to drink. Roasted broccoli, cauliflower, and carrots not pictured (I eated them).