ex
So, for the past 3 months a have developed an obsession id call it and I keep reading my texts that Ive been sharing with my Ex aka my first boyfriend. I feel like my life has changed a lot since then. I guess Im missing him, myself the life I had around that period. We used to live far but wed meet often so theres SO many texts that we were exchanging and thats how i just keeo on reading and reading it takes me back when love was easier, unfiltered where things were more simple but more deep and passionate. it was in 2015-2016-2017. What shocks me is that I forgot about a lot of things and when I started to read our texts I got flooded by all the memories. its like it was a different version of my life different timeline and I miss feeling that peace and love I feel like everything is more shallow now. After a lot of hurtful experiences when i read these texts I remember that its possible. I remember that Ive been loved and loved that person in ways that i saw as impossible lately. It wasnt my intent to dive so deep for so long. But i just found myself unable to stop doing it beacuse i saw something so beautiful what me and this person experienced was so profound. and even now that im almost 26 i dont see the realtionship as childish love or dumb it was real and Im so grateful that this got to be my first experience I really hope in the future I can experience that again .