24M - Used for 9 months, never felt the high, and finally quit when I realized how ridiculous it all was.
24M here. I used crystal meth for 9 months, and in all that time, I never once felt a euphoric high. I don't think I'm immune or resistant; my brain chemistry just never registered the euphoria. What actually hooked me was the ritual, the secrecy, and the complicity of the chemsex scene. I would often fake being high just to watch other people use—I had a sort of morbid fascination with it. Eventually, I started using alone. Because I couldn't feel the high, I would just chase it endlessly, sometimes smoking almost 2 grams in a single sitting with absolutely zero pleasurable effects. Why did I keep going? My logic was simply, "Because I can. As long as I don't show any visible damage, there's no problem."
The wake-up call happened this month. My mom went out of town, and I pictured a whole week full of chemsex. But on day one, smoking without the adrenaline of sneaking around and taking risks, the reality of what I was doing finally hit me. I felt completely ridiculous hitting a makeshift Gatorade bong in my room while my cats meowed at me. The whole thing felt performative, silly, and just profoundly stupid. I realized it makes zero sense to damage my body and risk my health for something that doesn't even give me a moment of pleasure. I’m sharing this with deep sympathy and respect for those of you who went through absolute hell to quit—I'm not bragging or claiming to be better than anyone, just sharing my bizarre experience.
(P.S. I bought from multiple different dealers, so it wasn't just bad gear. I am completely clean now, and party/PnP porn doesn't even interest me anymore.)