u/Life-Trifle2595

I play on mobile with shitty internet (2-3 bars max) and a 3150 team and I really wanted that timber because I don't have a good full back. I started grinding and grinding until I reached 1755 after so much suffering. I was scared it might not be enough for timber and I was also scared of playing another game. I decided to persuade myself to play one more game and I did. I got a goal and it was 1-0 for 85 mins... And I somehow lost the game 2-1. I'm not exaggerating when I tell you my heart sank so much bro, I was so mad I really wanted to break my phone. In desperation to fix things I started panickingly playing more and I tilted to 1686 then I decided to stop. I honestly feel so much rage and I get nauseous whenever I think about how I lost that game. I know for most of you this isn't an issue but for me winning one game is such a struggle and so mentally exhausting. Fuck man I wish I won that game, now if I don't grind back to timber then this one singular game will haunt me for the rest of my life.

So, I'm from Sudan and I've experienced the war from the day it started until today. Note that I wasn't always residing within a warzone in this period. I'm open to share my experience to anyone who is interested in learning about the truth, or what war is like from a civillian's perspective.

I'm 18 years old, and I have had a passion for psychology since I was young. I saw it as only natural to achieve the most that could be achieved in what I was interested in, and that was clinical psychology. But, I recently saw an overwhelming amount of people all over the internet complaining about how it's incredibly hard to get accepted into a PhD program.

At first it wasn't even a concern of mine because I didn't think it was possible for people to spend this much of their lives pursuing something, and then just encounter a dead end that would stop them indefinitely, which in turn wastes more of their lives.

I made this post to know how much I should really take this into account. Is it realistic to think I could waste my life applying for PhDs? Keep in mind I'm not a genius nor do I have a high iq or anything (as far as I know).