I lost my dog of 11 years today and I'm devastated
I really thought I would have my angel for a few more years but a couple of months ago he started getting to not be himself. After a couple of weeks of this I took him in thinking it was something minor and was told he probably had lymphoma. I kick myself now for not taking him in sooner but I began a regimen of natural anti cancer things I already knew of . Also the vet gave me some prednisone. But I was guessing through all of this and watched him barely eat and often keep to himself. Yesterday I finally gave in and made an appt which was today at 2 pm CDT. By 3 he was gone. Watching him drift away forever was the hardest thing since losing my mom 7 years ago. Coming home to him not here has been the next most difficult thing. All I can think of is that he's not here. I just can't seem to accept it and don't think I ever will. I'm not a religious person and rate myself an agnostic but I wish I could know if he's somewhere else better or just non existent now. I wish I knew if I took good enough care of him all of these years and did I let him languish and suffer too long these last few weeks hoping I could save him . I don't see how I'll get over losing him he had such a good honest heart. I really hope I just don't wake up ever again